I need to learn how to stop caring. No one likes what I like or is in interested in what I like except for gracie. She is literally the only person who hasn’t insulted or scoffed at the things I’m interested in or cut me off to indtead suggest other opinions because mine are clearly unsatisfactory. Yet I nod and smile and say okay and watch other people’s tv shows that I’m not actually interested in and I listen to them talk about what they’re into and when I try to talk about my passions I’m shut down. News flash. I’m not actually interested in your shit. I just like making you happy because I don’t know how to make myself happy anymore because no one gives enough of a fuck to try seeing what I like for once. I’ve eveb tries talking to other people about it and they nod and smile and act like they listened, act like they understand this predicament. And then go right on ahead and keep treating me the same. No. Fuck off. Shut up. Watch your shows listen to your music see your movies look st your art like the shit you like and fuck off. I’m so done.